This morning on a random social media outlet a fellow Mom was looking for compassion. She sent out a plea to the masses regarding how difficult it is to raise a 1 and 3yo and how she feels like a failure because, basically, her kids are completely normal toddlers. Of course, this was in a mom’s group so she got a TON of commiseration but it got me thinking about how harshly she would likely be judged had she posted her blip in another group, or on her profile page and how quickly others, especially those who aren’t in the same life stage, are so quick to judge.
I HEAR YOU!
I SEE YOU!
I FEEL YOU!
Girl, this shit IS hard! I love my boys, they are absolutely my entire world and I have willingly given up my passion professionally in order to be the Mom I want to be with them. But DAMN! This shit is HARD!
My boys are (newly) 2, 3, and 5. My house is a disaster, even after the 5 hours of cleaning my unicorn husband did on Saturday. Within 8, 10 hours TOPS, the hurricane has come back through. I can’t walk across my kitchen floor without getting a sticker, food particle, or colored cotton ball stuck to my foot. My guest bathroom smelt like piss the other day, I deep cleaned the whole damn thing and could not figure out why it still smelled like an old pool locker room! Then, I picked up the rug…did I mention I had 3 young boys? (Ya, that thing goes through the wash once a week now!)
The other day my nanny went to sweep and there was no dustpan. Couldn’t find it anywhere. Then my 3yo tells me he threw it into the trash last week because he accidently broke it. My vacuum can only do so much here people.
Did I mention my nanny? My nanny, oh sweet baby Jesus praise my wonderful nanny. You see, on top of everything I’m 15 days post op from an ACL surgery on my RIGHT KNEE! Which means that in addition to being largely nonweight bearing, I also can’t drive. LAWD this woman has been a God send! Not only have ALL 3 of my babies survived the last 2 weeks but they are also fed, clean, and happy. She has also driven me to all of my physical therapy and recheck appointments.
But surgery aside, my house is in a constant state of chaos. In fact, if I hadn’t let my OCD cleaning go (ok, lets be honest, I’ve never been next level OCD clean, but I have been somewhat picked up and organized, I don’t dust but my house is vacuumed-type clean), I would live in a constant state of stress and anxiety because it is IMPOSSIBLE to keep a house Pottery Barn immaculate with 3 small boys! IMPOSSIBLE!
And, I have yet to register the actual decibels up in here but there are days I feel we’d be coming close to the Chiefs Arrowhead stadium record! Someone is always scream-crying, throwing another’s prized possession over the baby gate down the stairs, knocking over a recently built Magnatiles fortress, ripping up a sacred painting or other work of art, hitting, kicking, or pushing. Those brief stitches of time when everyone is getting along are heavenly, but few and far between.
So yes mamma, yes! You are the only one who can’t stand being around toddlers, even the ones you have created. Obviously, just look at social media, everyone else’s children are so cute, friendly, clean, polite, and socially and emotionally put together…
Ha! Now, pour your classy glass of Merlot and come cry with me, my locked bathroom is reasonably big, let’s commiserate together! Then, breathe. Just admit defeat, be happy, and live your life. Get busy helping make messes with your littles. Acknowledge that mommin’ it is hard, parenting is NOT for the faint of heart. Someday your house will be clean but it will also be quiet, oh so quiet. What then?
Oh, and also, lets normalize the normality of motherhood along the way! Can we please? Let me start by posting this to my social media and we’ll see how it goes…